Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to everyone! Wishing you all a holiday filled with peace, joy and love.

A Christmas Meme

This came from Maggie. Thanks Maggie for another awesome meme.

1. Eggnog or Hot Chocolate?
Hot Chocolate. Love hot chocolate especially with a peppermint stick in it.

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
Santa has always wrapped the gifts. If they were really big like the bicycle that I got when I was 5, he wouldn't wrap them.

3. Colored lights on the tree/house or white?
White lights on the house this year and big colored lights on the tree. Next year, I think the house will be decked out in the big colored lights as well.

4. Do you hang mistletoe?
No, I don't hang mistletoe. I don't think I ever have.

5. When do you put your decorations up?
We try to put them up the weekend of Thanksgiving but it now depends on if the Princes are here or not. This year it wasn't until the second weekend in December when the princes were finally here.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding dessert)?
I'd have to say my mom's hash browns that she always mad eon Christmas.

7. Favorite holiday memory as a child?
The breakfast that we would have after opening gifts. My mom would make pancakes, hash browns, bacon, scrambled eggs and sausage-gravy with biscuits. This is something that I have continued with my own boys.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
Truth about Santa? What?!? I don't think I was ever told about Santa and now having a Prince that is 7 years old, Santa is alive and well in our house.

9. Do you open gifts on Christmas Eve?
Not usually but last night Yummy gave me a Christmas Eve gift.

10. What kind of cookies does Santa get set out for him?
Santa always gets holly-doodles. It's a snickerdoodle rolled in red & green sugar. He's gotten these since I was a kid.

11. Snow! Love it or dread it?
Love looking at it when it's white but after it gets dirty, YUCK!

12. Can you ice skate?
I haven't skated in about 15 years. The last time was when I went with the guy I was dating at the time and that was back in 1992, I think. I will be going this year as the Princes want to go to the outdoor rink in our hometown.

13. Do you remember your favorite gift?
I still have my favorite gift ever received as a kid. It's my teddy bear named Benny that my step-dad gave me after I "left" my beloved Snoopy in Chicago but really my mom threw him away after he was a mere shell of a dog. Literally, he was a shell that I carried around because all the stuffing had come out!

14. What's the most important thing about the holidays for you?

15. What is your favorite holiday dessert?
My grandma's sugar cream pie. I make it every year.

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition?
The Christmas breakfast. We're not having it this year since the Princes are at their dad's for the morning today.

17. What tops your tree?
It used to be a star with Santa in the middle when I was a kid. But as an adult, I can't ever remember topping the tree with anything. I've never found anything that I like.

18. What do you prefer... giving or receiving?
I really like to give gifts but receiving is always nice too.

19. What is your favorite Christmas carol?
"Do You Hear What I Hear?"

20. Candy canes... yuck or yum?
Love 'em! Especially the soft peppermint sticks.

21. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?
Yes. But I am always careful to not give it to someone in the same circle of people that it came from.

22. Favorite Christmas movie?
"It's a Wonderful Life," "A Christmas Story", "The Holiday"

23. Do you have a nativity scene?
Yes, I have one that my mom used when I was a kid. It was made by a lady that lived in our town and it's painted in a pearl paint. I always put on a tray with the angel hair and sometimes some white lights too.

24. What's the most annoying thing about this time of year?
The people who are rude and the people who think they need to express their pity for me because Yummy is working so much at the restaurant.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

It's Beginning to Look Like Christmas

Ahh... quiet time. It has been so long since I have had the chance to sit and post anything let alone read any of the blogs that I love. It is finally Christmas break which brings me some down time to catch up on reading and posting... okay, maybe more reading than posting.

I can't believe the school year is half over and Christmas is around the corner! I have had such a busy beginning of the year with switching from teaching Kindergarten to moving to first grade. I know, you might be say "it can't be that much of a difference" but when you add into the mix the social studies science, grammar, it takes on a whole new twist! I have the smallest class that I have ever had in 10 years - 13 total. I started with 14 but one little boy moved after only 3 weeks of school. He would have been a great addition to the class and I hope he's doing well in the southern half of the state. Out of the 13 kiddos, I have 2 with attitudes and we've worked on them not having melt-downs and 1 that can read fairly well but doesn't comprehend anything that he reads! This makes for an interesting mix each day.

Finally, things with the ex have simmered down quite a bit. We were able to reach a new agreement in mediation in mid-August only days before the Princes started school. The new agreement has brought more stability to the Princes with the ex's parenting time being taken down to the one evening per week and every other weekend which is standard in our state. This has taken care of the homework issue that the Princes were facing. It has been such a HUGE relief to have this weight lifted and now, I just look at the ex and say read your agreement. I know I have to stick to it and not bend from it because that is what created some of the issues prior. There's no more of him not giving the Princes' their meds as prescribed or trying to change dr. orders as it's been written into the agreement that meds will be given as prescribed and all dr. orders followed to a T! And, I can officially say that the ex has actually backed me up this past week with a school issue that our middle Prince is having at school and when we met with his teacher, principal and resource teacher. There is hope!

Christmas shopping is done and now I just need to wrap those gifts. I wish Santa would move a few of his elves in my basement to take care of that for me! I did the last of the shopping today and definitely have spoiled the Princes this year. I did most of it before Thanksgiving but couldn't help but pick up a few extra books and scooter for them. I still have to pick up the stocking stuffers but can do that while the Princes are at school on Monday. Tuesday I'll be at their school for the Christmas parties! I'm so excited to help since I don't get to do that very often anymore so it's baking here I come...

Hoping everyone has a WONDERFUL holiday!


Saturday, August 7, 2010

Dog Days of Summer

Well, summer is coming to a close for me. I hate when this happens. I could whine about how it's not fair, it's never long enough... blah, blah, blah. I have my first teacher meeting on August 11th and my students (all 13 of them) come on August 16th. I'm moving up a grade this year to first so it's quite a change setting up the classroom with little desks instead of tables, learning a new curriculum, and... deep breath here. I always think I'll never be ready but I get it all pulled together.

I also hate to see summer go but I am actually kind of looking forward to it. I'm anticipating a close to the on-going saga with the ex. Our court date is set for August 31st. The custody evaluation is coming to a close as the home visit was last weekend. The report from the doctor will be to the attorneys by August 20. My attorney is anticiapting a good outcome but we'll see. The ex keeps throwing things on me each week. Besides making the princes and I go through the custody evaluation because he told his attorney that I abuse the princes, am mentally & emotionally unstable, blah, blah, blah (And I just want to throw in here that my "crazy" test came back completely normal with NO clinical findings!!), the ex is now having his attorney subponea my personnel files from both schools I have taught at in the last 3 years! I swear will the man never learn that he's not going to find anything that will show I am a bad mom? Probably not... I really don't think I have met another person more vindictive than him. Uugghh... I just cringe when I think about being married to him.

On a brighter note... school shopping is done for the princes, registration for school is in a few weeks (they start a week after my students come) and I think they are looking forward to it just a little. The oldest prince will be heading to the other campus for his start of jr. high and gets to ride the shuttle bus. I didn't think riding the bus was that great at his age but I guess it was probably because I had to ride it The middle prince is going to be 'big man on campus' in his building and is wondering about the new 4th grade teacher coming and the little prince is heading into 1st grade and he is absolutely not ready to go back! lol

Hoping everyone enjoys that last weeks of summer! I think we'll head to the pool today and enjoy the sun!!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Nothing Like Family Time

Summer is here!! Yay!!! I just *heart* summer. It's my favorite time of the year... well, because I am not a winter person. Not that I don't like winter. I think winter is a beautiful season with the white snow, jack frost on the trees but I just don't like the cold weather. When the mercury dips below zero, this chick-a-dee is not happy.

I have spent the first two weeks of my summer vacation waiting for the princes to get out of school. I've had appointments to attend to, an ankle to nurse back to its normal self, packing to do and a trip to Florida.

We made a long weekend family trip to the Gulf last weekend and it was FABULOUS!! The weather was perfect, the sun shining, no rain and warm temperatures! We spent each day at least part of it at the beach whether the bay side or gulf side. The princes had so much fun in the water, diving for shells, chasing the fish and just being boys.

We drove to Sarasota from the Anna Maria Island to visit Mote Aquarium. If you ever go, it's a must! They have great exhibits and the sea turtles are amazing as my oldest prince put it! He's so into them that he's wanting to grow up to help take care of him. Go him!!! We even went back to do one of their boat tours and cruised through the bay there to catch some amazing sea creatures that the princes all got to touch, hold and check out up close! I'm telling you... this was the BEST family vacation we've ever had!!!

The last night there the princes and I headed back to the beach on the gulf side (we were only 2 blocks away) and it was low tide so we were able to walk out pretty far. The sunset over the Gulf was *AMAZING*. There is nothing like a sunset over the water to just put you at peace.

The princes had so much fun that the littlest prince asked if we could move there! I am right there with him... if only we could somehow get the ex to agree to allow me to move that far with the princes. Hmm... I think, I'll have to wait until the princes go off to college to become those marine biologists. ~wink, wink~

Once I'm a little more organized, I'll get some pictures up from the trip.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

School's Out for Summer!!

School officially ended Friday with the 17 little kiddos heading out the door to their parents! YAY! The last week they were all so excited and I just couldn't help but think to myself that if they only knew how excited I was too to be seeing them off for 10 weeks and not having to hear "Miss Honey, I'm done.", "Miss Honey, What do we do now?", "Miss Honey, Where do I put this?", "Miss Honey, Miss Honey, Miss Honey..." You get the point! *wink, wink*

I do have to go back on Tuesday for my final teacher meeting of the year and get their permanent records done but other than that I'm done for the summer! It's time to start lounging by the pool and working on the tan. That will all be done between running the princes to soccer and swim practice/meets! Yikes! So much for a restful summer vacation. You'll be able to find me poolside at 9 in the freakin' morning M-F while the princes practice each week, soccer two nights a week and a swim meet every other week.

I'm only glad I do have the summers off so I can run them to all their stuff while trying to work in a little "me" time. Who am I kidding? I have so much stuff to do it's not funny. I have 3 months to prepare for the trial on the whole custody thing with ex. It seems now he thinks he's going to get full custody of the princes by filing a motion for it 3 months before we go to trial. The man has missed 25% of his parenting time with the princes this year and been gone 30% of the entire year! How the hell does he think he's going to get full custody of them and make all the decisions, run them to everything, etc. when he's not even here???? Yup, he thinks he's going to get custody of them when he couldn't even pick up the middle prince's prescription this weekend from the pharmacy and emailed me to do it and bring it to him! Oh, and he's told his attorney who believes him that I'm mentally & emotionally unstable thus requiring me to submit to psychological testing and a custody evaluation of myself with my princes! The only good thing about this is that he has to complete it as well and pay for it at a tune of over $10 grand!!! He didn't get the evaluator that he wanted so he's scrambling now because he's got to pay some law professor for a prestigious university to complete the eval. He's hoping that they find something that he can use against me since none of the doctors that the princes see has anything in their charts that indicates I'm a bad mom. Yup, he went around and requested each and every medical chart even the counseling notes from the oldest prince's therapist! I just couldn't believe it! What an idiot!!!

Glad that it's summer and I have time to relax!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

The Worst Day Ever

This day has been a day from *hell*! Seriously, here... I really can't think a of a worst day in my life than today. It started out just fine like every other Saturday. I decided to go shopping for some coats for the princes. I was in Old Navy trying on a few things I found for myself when my phone started ringing and it was the asshat of an ex. I answered thinking that something was up and was I right. He told me that the oldest prince wanted to talk to me which is unlike the ex to introduce a phone call from one of the princes.

The oldest prince got on the phone and was sobbing hysterically. He told me that his dad wouldn't give him his things to put in his book bag, chased him through the house and told him that he couldn't call me. I told the oldest prince to let me talk to his asshat father. The ex got on the phone and started giving me a song and dance about how the oldest prince disobeyed him, blah, blah, blah.... I asked him if he chased the prince through the house and he wouldn't answer me. I asked him 2 more times and each time he refused to answer which I told him that by him not answering it gave me the answer. I told him that this was the 2nd time this week that he had lost control with the prince (the other was on Thursday when he got into a verbal argument over homework and slammed on his brakes in the middle of the road, swerved to the side of the road and screamed at all the princes then when home put the oldest prince in his room for the remainder of the night) and I was going to call my attorney and the crazy parent coordinator. He responded to me by telling me to call the sheriff. I called both my attorney and the parent coordinator. Neither could be reached so I called my mom for advice. I ended up calling the sheriff department and asked them to meet me at the ex's house so I could check on the princes and explained that because of the incident with the oldest prince last September I was very concerned for their safety.

The sheriff sent 2 deputies and by the time I got to his house they were in there checking on the princes. One came out to talk to me. I explained what had happened even though I told dispatch the same thing, explained the prior events with the princes and with the ex assaulting me in January '09 and then again in September '09. A third deputy arrived and the one in the house came out. These two were not so nice more like a prick and a bigger prick. The one that had interviewed the ex and the boys said that it sounded like the prince wasn't getting his way and threatened to call me which his dad "walked" after him to get the phone. *Ahem, yeah... asshole prick of a cop... my son wouldn't be hysterical and scared if his father had walked after him!* Told me that I needed to be a good mother explain to my son that he needed to listen to his father. *Again, asshole... I AM a good mother and do tell the princes to listen to their asshat of a father.* This deputy told me that he could file a formal report but... *Ahem, yeah... you need to file a formal report!* I asked them about CPS as my parent coordinator told me to ask them about if it was necessary. The bigger prick of a cop told me that no crime had been committed and if any one of them called CPS they would each look like a fool. *Ahem, it's not about you asshole. It's about MY kids!* The nice deputy gave me a control number so I could call on Monday and find out how to get the report. I asked about seeing the princes or at least the oldest prince before I left so he knew that I was there. The prick of a cop told me it was up to asshat of an ex if he allowed the prince(s) to come out. The prick cop came out with the oldest prince who was in tears. I did what any good mom would do and reminded him that he needed to listen to his dad, get whatever it was that his asshat father was asking for, etc. Told the prince that I would call later to check on him and I would see him tomorrow.

It was the hardest thing for me to leave my princes there with the asshat! But I had no choice since there wasn't any crime committed as the bigger prick cop pointed out. When I talked to the parent coordinator prior to meeting the deputies, she said the ex had called her to tell her that I was calling the cops on him but he left out that he had chased the prince through the house. She said if she would have known that detail she would have insisted on talking to the prince but when she asked about talking to the prince, the asshat ex told her it wasn't necessary and she didn't think it was that bad because it was quiet. Ah, yeah... as he was probably outside in the garage talking to her! DUH!! I told her about the incident on Thursday and that I suggested to the ex that he needed to sit down and talk to me about disciplining the boys and he told me he'd rather seek professional help. I suggested parenting classes and the parent coordinator told me that she had no problem recommending those for the asshat. I think this incident has shed some light on it for her.

I never thought in my life that I would need to call the sheriff on my ex but I knew that I didn't have much of a choice. I couldn't go by myself, he wasn't being forthcoming with information (which is normal), and I needed to know that the princes were safe and a repeat of September wasn't/wouldn't happen.

So, now it's a phone call on Monday to the attorney and see what the next step is.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Rainy Days & Mondays...

Geez, it's been a while since I've posted! It's been a little chaotic to say the least around here. I swear I've been running like a chicken with my head cut off... I really don't know which end is up.

**Restaurant is at a stand still as we are waiting on numbers from the kitchen design team, logo and other misc. items to finish the business plan.

**Things on the ex front has heated up... he returned from his trip and asked for some additional time with the princes due to missing all of his 12 days in January. I gave him 6 days to which he was not happy and demanded, you read it right... demanded that I give him every one of my days from the end of Feb. until the end of March! I think not! That didn't happen as the good ole' attorney threatened him with contempt charges if he didn't return the princes to me when he was suppose to at our agreed upon time.

**Homework continues to not get done while the princes are at the ex's house. He says it is okay for the boys to fail assignments/tests because it makes them a successful person later in life. Seriously, WTF??? He has stated that he should not have to help the 9 yr. or 10 yr. olds on their homework and that all three princes should be responsible to get their stuff completed and not bother him. Not kidding here folks!

**Continues to battle over additional days which I found out he is not entitled to as he chose to work rather than spend his time with his kiddos. But still thinks he is entitled to it and now has scheduled a meeting with the crazy parenting coordinator to make me give up my time so he can have the boys. The only thing is that no one consulted me to the meeting and I have meetings after school both nights. Oops!

**Had surgery last week for nothing it seems. Been having a severe pain in the left lower abdomen and the doctor did a laproscopy to find out why. Unfortunately, everything checked out fine which is a relief! Now, it's onto more probing if it persists but they are thinking that it is stress causing the pain. Not like I have any of that right now! ~wink, wink~

**We have a team of educators coming to my school this week to evaluate us. They will be there for 2 days and then after interviews, observations, etc. they will let us know if we retain our accreditation and at what level.

I'm just hoping that I can keep it all together the next few weeks, keep the stress to a minimum (or at least less) and keep the pain at bay. Here's lookin' to sunshiny days ahead...

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Chef's Widow...

Let me just warn you first - this is a post to just 'air' my frustrations with my chef. So, I'm sure it will seem like I am bitching and maybe I am but since this is my place, I can do that!

For the past several weeks he has been complaining about not seeing me/being with me/just hanging out with me/etc. You all get the idea. As many of you know and are aware of that being married to a chef means that I am a 'widow' on holidays, every freaking Friday & Saturday nights, evenings during the week... the restaurant owns him basically. Some of you may be wondering, didn't she know this before marrying him and the answer is a resounding YES! I knew all of this because we were together for 2 1/2 years prior to us getting married this past July. I knew what I was getting into but lately it's different... let me explain.

1. We have decided that now is the time for Yummy to venture out on his own and take the huge leap of faith and open a place of his own. It's exciting and I am SO proud of him and I KNOW he can do it and make it work. We had people come to us this past fall and inquire about him opening his own place and told us they would back it if this was something we both wanted. Hell yeah!!!

This has meant that after the hectic, chaotic holiday season that starts right after turkey day and goes through NYE Yummy has been putting together a business plan (of course, with my help - I'm the phone person, research person, read this, proof this, all around business plan bitch I suppose would be my title). This nasty deed is long and tedious and consumes most of his waking time that he is not serving the public. I've done as much as I can to help but I'm not in the restaurant industry per se so I don't know all the number stuff. It started as a venture that he insisted that it would take both of us to run the restaurant and I would need to be in it when the princes weren't with us - meaning rubbing elbows with the guests, making sure the servers are doing their jobs, etc. Basically a night time manager/owner. THEN all of a sudden he's talking about having a friend who has NO experience in the industry be the GM! WTF!!! Then, it goes to no we don't need one because you'll be there and eventually you can quit teaching and work at the restaurant. Uugghh... it changes daily - some days he wants me involved and others it seems that he would be fine if I was never there. So, IDK.

2. The next 'problem' is that he has been constantly complaining about us not spending time together and not seeing me and missing me. Blah, blah, blah. I totally get this because like I said each waking minute is spent working on this plan, doing research, etc. I have the same feelings as Yummy does and try to make time/find time/etc. so we can be together. But the problem lies in that he doesn't do the same. When I try, he's only interested in working on that damn plan.

He had 2 days off this week in a row (not typically) and was excited about it because he was going to get to spend some time with his family. Wednesday night I had to be at school because of the talent show but came home early from that so I could see him. As soon as I hit the door, I got the princes to bed/checked homework so I could see Yummy. What does Yummy do? Opens the plan and starts working on it. So much for that! Thursday night the princes are picked up from after school care by the ex who drops them off at 4:30 which I then take them to the skating party (Yummy doesn't typically have Thursdays off so this was not told to me until Wednesday.) for school which I asked Yummy to go with us. He chose to meet his friend to go over the plan (This is the friend that has not industry experience.). Yummy asked what time I would be home and I told him by 8:30 but probably closer to 8. Got home and no Yummy. Sent him a text letting him know I was home and he informed me that he stopped at the new wine bar because our friend wanted to go. Okay, so much for spending time together this week I thought. At 9:30 I went to bed with no Yummy who didn't come to bed until midnight. Not sure what time he got home.

Now he's wondering why I'm in a mood and just doesn't get it. He chose to be out with friends which is starting to happen more and more (and no, I'm not one of those wives that thinks her husband can't have friends but when he complains about not spending time with me...). He doesn't get why I've got a cold shoulder towards him and tells me he'll make it up to me. Ahem, yeah... not gonna hold my breath.

His answer to me is 'we just need a weekend get-a-way'. Yeah... that's the answer! Why would I even want to spend the money to go away for the weekend and hopefully have him pay attention to me because it's going to be a weekend of research for the restaurant since he wants to go to Cleveland and check out several different restaurants there when he doesn't give me the time of day here at home. A change of scenery isn't going to make a difference!

There it's off my chest so to speak... I'm sure you all will have thoughts and yes, tell me if I'm being bitchy, inconsiderate, whatever... maybe I am but the funny thing is I'm not mad or angry - I'm hurt I guess is the best way to put it.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Whisper to Me Softly...

Well, enough is enough... I swear if I don't catch a break here pretty soon then I'll just scream. Okay, maybe not but I'd like to. **wink, wink**

The month has been going fairly well with the ex-husband being on a business trip since Jan. 9th and the princes being with me. It's been true bliss except for the emails flying back and forth the day that he left but I'm done with it and the good news in this area is that my attorney is getting a court date so the judge can decide and get the crap over with since it's been going on for 3 yrs and the mediation & parent coordinator (crazy lady as we like to call her around here) didn't make any dent in the situation. I'll either get my ass handed to me by the judge or come out with what I'd like to see happen for the princes.

Back to this week... it started with me making a visit to our local Redi-med on Saturday night to find out I had a bad case of strep throat, staying home from school on Monday and going back on Tuesday and finally feeling better on Wednesday.

Wednesday night comes and I begin to slowly lose my voice! WTF???? My throat doesn't hurt, I'm feeling better and now I'm losing my voice? I woke up this morning with the squeakiest voice I have ever heard - I swear it was like having Minnie Mouse in the house or something like that! Anyhoo... I go to work because no one would be able to hear me if I called to request a sub plus I had a box full of basketball clappers that I needed to take to school. Got to school and came to the realization very quickly that there was no way that I would be able to teach a group of 5/6 yr. olds with no voice. Got a sub and went to the dr.

Waited almost 2 hours to see the nurses practitioner (and this was only to get back to the room). It was another 40 minutes before she came into see me and this is how the conversation went:

NP: "Hi, I'm so-and-so."

Me: shaking head

NP: "You went to Redi-med and was diagnosed with strep throat?"

Me: shaking head again

NP: "They put you on 500 mg Biaxin 2 times per day?"

Me: again shaking my head in agreement

NP: "And why are you here to see me?" (Imagine her saying this while she is doing the little head cock with the annoyance in her voice.)

Me: squeaking out "Because I have no voice."

NP: "It's going around and it takes 5-7 days for the voice to come back."

Me: "But I had strep earlier this week and think it could be related."

NP: "It's a virus." (This without her even touching me!)
Me: "I've waited 2 hours to see you when my appt. was at 11:20 and you're not going to examine me."

NP: "It's a virus. Sorry. Go home and rest."

Me: "The phone nurse could have told me this when I called. The front desk or your nurse could have told me you were 2 hours behind and given me the choice of seeing someone else but instead I waited for 2 hours for you to not examine me. This is unacceptable - I came in to make sure it wasn't anything else or still the strep but you won't even listen to what I'm saying to you."

I politely told her that she was a bitch and walked out with the paper to take the the cashier who when I asked her to have my dr.'s nurse make a note that I am NEVER to be given to the nurse practitioner again asked why. She promptly offered to have another dr. see me and went and explained the situation to the other dr. This dr. stayed late from lunch to see me. Comes to find out I have fluid behind my right eardrum (enough to be causing problems), a sinus infection that is draining into my throat causing it to be sore & irritating the vocal cords making them swell to the point of causing my laryngitis! This dr. put me on another medicine along with the current antibiotic and if there isn't a slight improvement tomorrow then she will change my antibiotic tomorrow afternoon before the weekend. Hmm... now the nurse practitioner might have caught all of this if she would have done her job and actually examined me!!! Thank goodness for the wonderful dr. and wishing the nurse practitioner learns some bedside manners very soon!

I should have part of my voice back by Monday (and I'll scream then if I'm not better) but it means another day off from school for me and not going to the school's open house on Sunday. Nothing like a 4 day weekend - it'd be better being able to talk but a little "me time" is always good. ~grinning~

Friday, January 1, 2010

A Decade in Review

Wow! Where has the last decade gone? I think with each passing year the time goes just a little bit faster or could it be that I am just a little bit busier with each passing year? A thought for another post I suppose.

Having had the day to reflect on where my life has taken me over the last 10 years (it seems I've either had a touch of a 'bug' or one hell of a hangover which is unusual for me on ONLY 2 martinis!)

When Y2K began, I was a new bride and new mom - I know what a combination... and I had realized what a mistake that I had made in getting married to a man that I truly didn't love but as many people I thought to myself that I "made my bed and needed to lie in it" and tried to make the best of a not-so wonderful situation. My then husband chalked it up to me having post-partum that kicked in 6 months after the birth of the oldest prince. Shortly after this I found out I was expecting the second prince. I know *shaking head* some of you will be asking "why". I've asked myself that million dollar question many times and I always come up with an answer but that's another post.

Three years later brought the youngest prince and my accomplishment of finishing my teaching degree, giving up my job to raise my little guy who came early and take care of my princes. It also brought to the realization that I was married to a man that didn't actually care about my well-being which was definitely apparent when I was placed on bed rest and he chose to ignore the medical issues that I was having and it was still required that I take care of the house, other 2 princes and the yet to arrive prince.

A year later in 2004, went through ups and downs with family - had A LOT of money scammed from us by someone we trusted and had let into our lives. Needless to say, I had the last laugh in 2005 when the SOB was arrested and he tried in 2006. That is definitely another post! I can tell you about super-duper sleuth skills and my "undercover" assignment.

Then in 2005 I became involved in an organization that gave me a purpose and unbeknownst to me I would be introduced to my prince charming! It just took a whole year for that to become apparent.

The year 2006 rolled around and my close friend moved to the Wild West the past August, I increasingly started doubting my husband's devotion to me and his family and started questioning what the fuck I was doing with my life. It was the year of change for me... and boy, did it ever. The friendship that I had made with this person that would end up being a god send helped me realize that I was not me any longer. I long had "lost" who I once was - that fun-loving, silly at times, strong but serious when I needed to be girl that moved to a town that I had no one 10 years before. I decided to take a leap of faith and step out and find her again and knew that to do that I needed to make changes. The first was to stop lying to myself and the people I truly cared about and finally step out of a relationship that I had allowed to suck the life out of me. With that first courageous step, I have finally found ME again. You know you are on the right track when your mother looks at you and tells you that she has her daughter back. OUCH!

The last 3 years has had it's ups and downs but I am a stronger person because of them. I continue to grow in who I am - I still have my prince charming that was there when I needed him the most, my princes adore their mom and I adore my princes, I FINALLY have a job that I LOVE!

Now, as I begin a new decade.... I am still a new bride but this time it's a dream come true so I say bring on the next 10 years!